Many things have happened this year, memories have been
made, people have clashed, bonds have been broken and you can cut the
anticipation of summer with a knife. Junior year has had to have been the most
stressful year in high school I have ever endured, not to mention all the
stress my ex-girlfriend had added to my shoulders.
In the beginning of the year I was really happy to come back
to my old town see my old friends and reminisce in memories of when we were all
younger, but as a few weeks went by I realized that wasn't going to get those
memories back because no matter how long you're gone things do not remain the
same. People move on people find new friends and develop new relationships or
friendships and begin to forget the past. I myself had fallen into that
category, forgetting all my old friends because I was too tied up with a possessive
girlfriend who later made my life miserable.
Half way through the school year I had realized that this
was not how I planned to spend my life and I began researching into the study
of life; philosophy. I had been inspired by Mr.Kotak, the curriculum was
amazing. I learned about myths, religion and how they all correlate, and I soon
realized that no matter how old all humans share one thing in common, they
don't know their purpose in life so I began to sit alone for hours and think
and think until I would get ideas on purpose and existence. The reasons myths
are created are to tell a story of why we are here on Earth, and these stories
explain to us our existence. These myths may not be true or accurate but they
gave people a reason to live, the reason myths are started is to quench our curiosity
of existence and death.
So as I had started to further my knowledge in philosophy
and mythology I had realized that there is no true religion, I no longer had to
fear a judgment for my actions because religion is just a manmade myth. As I
began to realize the truth it had made me feel free on the outside and inside,
I no longer had to the things I didn't want to do, that meant no more communion
and no more confession for me! My girlfriend at the time hated my idea, but it
didn't bother me because I cannot remember one idea of mine that she agreed
with, so I began living a more care free life while maintaining good grades and
a girlfriend, but I still felt oppressed in a way of self-expression, I
wouldn't be able to hang with my friends or family on the weekends without
having to face the wrath of a women.
Eventually it all added up and towards the end of the year I
was single, but it didn't matter to me because I know I am truly happy with my interest in the study of mythology and philosophy along with the short amount of time I've been given to spend with my friends.
